Of darkness and sin

The life we know

Destined to end

The pain

The hurt

Agony

Life

The hate

The anger

The bitterness

The strife

I cry tears

Of bitter pain

The sin in my life

Strands out like a stain

It seems as though

We have no control

The world will soon

Suffer under deaths toll

Lord forgive me

Save me from this hell

Im trusting in you

Know your truth will prevail

Born into a world

Of darkness and sin

The truth I know

Allows me to win

Please listen for a moment

Allow me to express how I feel

Forget what you heard or thought

Let me show you whats real

I know many have been the whispers about me

But there are none so blind as those who will not see

To many Im arrogant, filled with pride

But is there anyone willing to look inside

Can anyone look past mistakes Ive made

Can anyone see behind my smooth façade

If only youd been there the nights I cried

Lonely and saddened with none by my side

Wanting to be held most desperately

But so afraid to let go

To let anyone get close to me

Guarding my heart under lock and key

Waiting for someone to set me free

Maybe thats the thing holding me down

Always looking for someone wholl stay around

But is it so much to ask

For one to hold my hand

Hold me close and help me to stand?

Beautiful

Dont you ever look at me

And judge what you see

Cuz you dont know my pain

Youve never seen my rain

Have you ever been through my storm

Had to rise above the norm

Had to deal with my issues

Of every fashion or form

Dont let me ever catch you

Doing that thing you do

Snickering at the tear in my eye

When I start to cry

Tears of relief

Dont you ever look down

On my hands

Because they are rough

To make it through

I had to grab some tough

Situations and issues in my life

Bitterness, hate, defeat and strife

So sure there are calluses

And hard spots there

And its something you should take time to reverence,

Not stare

I know my hairs brittle

My face weathered

I havent had time to be

Pampered and feathered

But look in my eyes

And see the beauty thats there

The love that kept me through trails

And Lord knows Ive had my share

Why you

Why now

I wish I could

Turn back time

Somehow

I think of you

Driving down the road

Talking on your handy

Phone

Baby girl we had just

One more year

Its hard thinking about this life

With out you here

You were almost grown

It pains me to think

You had to die alone

You werent paying attention

To the road

Or perhaps there was something

Wrong with your vision

Either way you couldnt prevent

That two-way collision

I imagine how the glass

Must have shattered

Your fragile body

Broken, tattered

As you laid on that cold hard floor

I think of how quickly

Your life was gone

No more

What were the last thoughts

To race through your mind

Did you say your prayers

Make peace with God in time?

I sit and wonder

Did you meet heaven or hell

Oh dear God its my fault

I didnt do my job well help me be a better Christian

Your word I will tell

But God why her?

Why now?

Ill make it up somehow

Changes

For every person you touch you change, with every change you change, with every change you become a little more of someone new. We are constantly touching lives, our lives our constantly being touched. Every day brings change, a chance for choices; every choice you make brings change and determines your future. It determines whom you are and whom you become, so choose well.

Love

You cant be afraid of love

Afraid to step out

Afraid of risks

Afraid of investment

Love is unpredictable

You never know

Its a gamble

Where you have to give your all

And risk the lost

If you love and lose

You still gain

But if you never try

Then youve missed out on life.

Dedicated to Apresha Langston

If today was my last day You made it through the gate

Living on this earth

And I had to evaluate life So if I die today

And name what I considered of worth And this was my last day on earth Id die in peace

It wouldnt take ages Cuz I was blessed with a friend

It wouldnt take days Who gave life its worth

To name that friend

Whose loyalty never strays

Id cross the river

Id bring you the moon

In the middle of December

Id bring you June

During the night

Id be your day

Id bring you Christmas

Early in May

I look back on life

On the trails that Ive had

But with you here beside me

They didnt seem so bad

You were always there

To help me through

Id give my life

To return the favor to you

Not for all the rubies

Silver or the gold

Could our friendship

Ever be sold

And if youd died first

And went to heaven

Just to show how much I care

Id trade in my years to meet you there

And if I died and met Peter first

Id tell him to wait

Cuz I couldnt go in until Im sure

I had a dream, something that I thought was solid

Something that I could believe in, someone should have told me

That not all dreams come true, because if I had of known,

I wouldnt have believed in you.

Its not to be cruel; its not to be rude

I only say this, in a humble attitude

I held on to only one thing in my life

The only thing I ever thought to be true

That thing I believed in was the one and only you.

This is a dream that Ive dreamt for too long

How could something that felt so right, have been so wrong?

I look at myself, and think Im just a simple fool

How could I have forgotten, how could I have fallen so easy?

How could it have happened, why didnt I see?

Did I not tell you to run, to leave me alone?

Did I not tell you to leave me, out on my own?

I knew in my heart, there was no sense in holding on

Because in a matter of time, the right look, smile, girl

And youd be gone.

I begged you, I pleaded

Why didnt you just heed to my advice, give me what I needed?

Stubborn as a mule, determined as an ass

Blocking my road so that I could not get pass

No, you said

Just put faith in me

Ill always be there

But I knew that as time passed on

Youd no longer care

Ive only been heartbroken

Once in my life

Cried for three days

And laid that trouble away

You came into my life then

Like a beacon of light

And you promised

To be there

That you wouldnt hurt me

That there was no need to fear

Well Im hurting right now

So why arent you here?

I dont mean to be selfish

I know you never meant to cause pain

But that doesnt stop the tears from falling

It doesnt dry my rain

I had dreams

That I let fly

Dreams

Of you and me

In our own life

Secure and happy

I laid awake many nights

Thinking things through

Staring at the stars

In prayer for you

Now Ill lay awake

Stare at my sky

No longer dreaming of you and I

Trying my hardest not to cry.

I know that in time

Love will heal

And after my wounds

And after my sorrow

And after my rain

Comes a sunny tomorrow

Wishing that lucky lady the best

Hoping shes happy

You know the rest

Praying that she treats you right

Because she stole

The stars from my night

Yet selfishly I wish shed go

Im only being real

No fronting

No show

I only want to see

Me next to you

But I got to step aside

And let life do what it will do

I just hope years later

I wont run into you

I hope I find the one God meant for me

I hope Ill learn to trust again

Love once more

Find out what it means to be happy

A friend asked

What if later you and I realize

We were meant to be

What if I was meant for you?

And you for me?

So yes I hope I never see you again

Until I am strong

Passed it

Until I can move on

Someone once said

It was better to have loved and lost

Than to have not loved at all

But I say it is better to not know

What lost love does cost

If my heart was never broken

I wouldnt feel pain

If the world wasnt so corrupted

Wed never of had the rain

And though the rainbow comes later

And shines through

It will never compensate

For the cost

Of all the things we have lost.

For The Show

One is for the money

Two is for the show

But whos behind the masks

We will never know

The world is a stage

Where a game is played

We all pick up masks

And hide behind facades

The double lives

The viewers never know

To them its all good

Because they too put on a show

Remembering

Remembering yesterday so well

The memories shared

The moments made

The games we played

Never want to let go

Never want to say good-bye

Never want to leave

Never want to cry

Never want to forget the memories we had

Hey lady who could forget

The crazy things we do

Me and you

Bonnie and Clyde two thousand and one

Two thousand and two

We had some crazy times

Some silly dreams to share

But hey that hole wasnt so bad with you there

Quite a few things in common

Some things the same but the only things identical

Were the Ss in our name

Remember the crushes

Remember the talks

Remember the lunches

Remember the walks

So few people are blessed to have someone touch their life

So few count their blessings while it is there

Cant ever deny the worth

You know I care

Im here for you

Through thick and thin

From the bad to the good

The beginning till the end

After all you are my sister

My chica, my friend

I pray for your peace

I pray for your soul

I pray that you always keep

Your self-control

I pray that God watches you

In all that you do

I pray that in life, you always stay true

I pray for your salvation

I pray for your restoration

I pray for our friendship

And its preservation

I pray that Ill see you in heaven on that day

I pray youll stay strong

Lives send you what it may

Fancy us

And how our friendship grew

I prayed for a blessing

But howd I know Id get two

When we leave to start on life the only thing between you and me

Is not the distance or even destiny

But stars in the sky

And still not even they can come between the friendship

Of you and I

Wall Flower

Shes but a

Wallflower to be

Blown in the breeze

So hardly noticed

She blends in so well

With the trees

Her pain and

Grief no one knows,

Shes but a wallflower

Drowned in woes

I once

Dedicated to Terrell Taylor

I once loved a man as sweet as can be

He took my heart and stole it from me

It shattered my soul when it took its toll

The reality that hed never be for me

But still he showed me what I thought Id never see

He showed me love, and how to care

Even when it seemed as if no one was there

He showed me life and what it was all about

He made me feel special beyond all doubt

And even if he was only here for now

I would trade these moments no way, no how

I once loved a man as sweet as can be

I gave him my heart and he taught the world to me

Authors note: Rappacini was a scientist from the book Rapacinis Daughter who created plants which he though belonged to a perfect world. Those living things that were around his daughter (who was poisonous though she could not help it) were infected with her poison and killed. The book is about a tragic story of love. The girl loved a man but she was poisonous though she would of given anything in the world for it to be any other way.

So many thoughts on my mind

Wishing so desperately to find

The words or thoughts

Things to express

What my heart feels and thinks at best

This silly little game I play, the silly little things I do

Im so afraid Ill make a mistake

And somehow hurt you

This ever-winding road

Which way does it turn

This ever-winding path

Which way should I seek

Caught up in a web of confusion

Tangled in the strings of bitter uncertainty

Silently I scream,

Run and stay away

Avoid this hurt and pain

The sting my touch does give

The poison in my words

The intoxication of my very being

For if not careful you could get caught

In my silent little web

And I must do, as nature requires

So I bid you

Turn away while you can

Turn away while you might